In school at the moment. Just finished my CAD assessment. Unexpectedly got a 9/10 for my first part.. so that's 45% of the test. The other 50% is yet to be marked. It was alrite i guess... unexpectedly. Cos i only practiced it yesterday .. stayed in school late cos i didnt have the program at home. I guess im doing well... alhamdullilah! Exams lagi! errkkk!

Kapihhh.. im so kapihhh... NO!, i did NOT spend all my money on clothes etc etc.. I had lots to pay this month. Bills, ntl, grocery, bus rides, bond! eerkk! Told my mom about it.. then papah sent some money. I feel bad about it though. Cos i got my allowances already, hoping to lessen my parents' burden and all. But i seriously dont know where all my money went. I seriously didnt buy lotsa clothes and stuffs. Most were on food.. well, necessities u know. Hmm... ahh, well.

U know .. those random thoughts u have before u sleep... well, last night .. mine was about the future. I seriously dont know what's gona happen u know. Well, we're not spose to. But just thinking about it .. somehow makes me nervous, made me teary-eyed. Part of me wants to live in the past.. back when i was still a kid. When we all stayed at my granddad's house in Lambak, where the Poojas did everything together u know. Another part of me wants to live in the present. Uni life aint so bad.. its part of the life cycle aint it? But no parts of me actually wants to go to the future.. is that a sin?

Time flies by soooo fast... i dont know how many times i've said that... but its true! I felt like it was just friday yesterday .. and today it's friday again. And i feel like i didnt do much over the week that passed by... it went by just like that. We're so caught up with other things... we forget to appreciate life as it passes by. So im appreciating it.. making full use of my time.. of what's left. U never know what's gona happen ryt? But i do know everything happens for a reason.

Had an IM convo with my cuz baz.. about Uni life and how we kind of learn about life jua. This is what he had to say:

HamiBaz - i dreamt i touched the sky says:
well..

HamiBaz - i dreamt i touched the sky says:
you really see that life is not just about sitting down and expecting things to go ur way

HamiBaz - i dreamt i touched the sky says:
you have to work and earn it

HamiBaz - i dreamt i touched the sky says:
its also about finding balance

HamiBaz - i dreamt i touched the sky says:
its also about appreciating things and learning to forgive urself

HamiBaz - i dreamt i touched the sky says:
basically its really interesting for me

HamiBaz - i dreamt i touched the sky says:
even tho ada basic slips..siuk belajar..gettin back up is a really good challenge

Its pretty much what i've been feeling when im here... going thru this phase. We've had our fair share of mistakes.. but we make up for it ryt? But .. have we forgiven ourselves? That's the key to moving on isnt it.. Make a fresh start if u have to. I know i have. Im slowly walking back up those steps. And im proud! *sigh* i miss my family. They were there when i fell down those stairs.. Thank you :) mwahs!

Tear drop Friday, March 10, 2006 of Normalini a.k.a Santy Rosli