I know for a fact that ..
Everything Happens For a Reason
What would you say if i asked u not to go?
To forget everyone, forget everything,
.. and start over with me
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Long post from a jobless person.
It is 7.05pm. The day is still this bright with pretty blue clear sky (Rained earlier though). It has been a good day for me. Few things that made my day today.
One was THIS!
THIS came today: my graduation wardrobe. Hee! That got me pretty excited. Yes, i tried it on.. and i was already overwhelmed with emotions. I hope to graduate with flying colours. Amin! I've done my part, now it's up to fate. I just have to pray for great outcomes =)
Come July 16th, this will be my head gear =D
Look at that. Fits perfectly on Bobo.
Then, called home.. after such a long time. My sisters were already sleeping. So i had the full hour talking with my parents. It was really nice talking to them. They brightened up my day even more. Though my dad was bragging about his new camera 70% of the time. HAHA! Its funny cause when im talking to my mom, my dad will be shouting some stuffs in the background... and vice versa. Oh, Papah told me that Uncle Jok got admitted in the hospital couple of days ago. They're still waiting for results. I hope you get well soon <3
I'm going over to at Aunty Nong's this Saturday. Pretty sudden. But then again, i dont have anything to do. Plus, Hadi and Fadhil are coming down as well =) Then im off to Hull. I've been in this country for 3 years, and i havent gone over to Chubbs' EVER.. till now. So im pretty excited <3>
So with all the joy and excitement in me... i decided to make THIS! *picture below* Lasagne a'la Santy clause. Hahahahah! Okay.. that wasnt funny at all! Everytime i tell ppl to call me Santy (which is farrrrrr off from my real name btw), they'd go "Like Santa Clause?" I get that a lot. Its not funny anymore. Ok, probably a little. Hahaha.
I already ate 1/8th of it. Its nyummy =) Oh and its vegetarian. Did i forget to mention that i turned vegan?? .... Ok im kidding. That'll be THE day. Haha. I just used veggie meat from Tesco cos there wasnt any minced beef in the fridge. Huhu.
So, while waiting for the Lasagne to bake, i took some pictures of the house. Im gonna miss this house a lot. (Though i think we ruined it. Everything's breaking down on us. Our washing machine is broken.. haha) It has given me so much memories that i can reminisce 10years from now. 2 years worth of memories. Lovely housemates <3 Personally, i think its the perfect location.. everything's so nearby. The thought of leaving this place actually saddens me a bit. I really am gona miss this part of my life. Packing is going to be a tad bit hard. Gona have to pack up soon though. *sniff*
So here you go... Its nothing much, but these are bits of 2 years of my life =D
The room. Too much stuffs, too little space =P
The annoying signboard outside my room.
The vain corner.
Brendon's corner. Under my stacks of notes. (Notice the 2 notes on the wardrobe? My dad and sis put it there, incase i forgot their measurements =P)
Jessica Alba's side of the room.
Stairs. Siah's room on the left. And the living room beside it.
Our shoe obsession.
Our "Bill"board. Get it? Get it? The board full of house BILLS. (Lame joke number 3) Hahaha.
Wow. This is surely a long post from someone who stayed home the whole day and has nothing better to do. Haha.
Yes, i made cakoi last night. In conjunction of exam stress. (I dont know why i didnt take a picture of the final product. It was pretty! hehe) I needed to waste time on something more productive. It was either that or brownies. But i figured my body is probably fed up of the chocolates i've been eating throughout my exam period. Hehe!
It's raining heavily today. So much for going to the library. And tomorrow's a bank holiday. I doubt that the library is opened. Shucks. I shall gather all my will power to study for my final exam without any distractions. *checks alluc for tv shows* hahhaha.
I was gona talk about something. But now i forgot. I'm talking to my sister Aimi through videocall right now. I should go study though. 15mins =D
This was taken around 3-ish-am, 6 hours before my paper last Thursday. I finally slept a good couple of hours at 5am. Did you know that because of not sleeping and having proper rest before your exam paper... u are bound to forget most of what you studied? Okay.. i don't know myself. But i read this:
"A study by Harvard University shows that people who sleep tend to remember things better. So sleep and see how much you remember things better. "
I guess i can blame partly on not sleeping enough for last Thursday's paper (Or i'd like to think so). Cause i couldn't remember some little things, that i repetitively covered that night (or early morning). How was that possible? Seriously? It just gets really frustrating. Gahhh!
Anyhoo.. lets not dwell over what has already passed... Its my own fault anyways. *chokes self* hahahha.
I just ordered my graduation robe online. I got excited. Haha. Ohh, apparently im 5'5''.. i've grown an inch since the last time i checked, and that was ages ago!
I've been watching 'House' lately. Pretty interesting. But the anticipation of knowing what actually is wrong with his patients kills me, cause you'll only know it probably the last 10 mins of the show.
I should getting myself something to eat. I miss my dad's chilli crabs. Actually, i miss a lot of food that only me & my dad dare to eat. No, im not gona mention.. cause i've seen people's reactions when i told them. HAHA! Cant wait to be back home. *sigh*
Ok.. im suppose to take a short nap to make up for lost sleeping hours last night. But somehow i can't. i KNOW im tired and sleepy. But my body tells differently. Oh well.. i just hope i sleep rather well tonight. Anyhoo... i was going through youtube (ofcourse!) .. and found this! Lostprophet's radio interview on Cool FM which ian and jamie totally took over themselves. Hahaha. Oh, you can tell by their accents how welsh they are "LiberaSHAN TransmiSHAN" hahahahhaha
"I like the fact that you call yourselves cool fm. That's like calling myself rad" hahahha. "Sorry we're not up to your standards. Obviously we didnt go to radio dj school"
Ohh, exam was alright i suppose. The lack of sleep probably was the cause of lost memory. (I slept at 5 and woke up at 7) So that side of my brain was still sleeping, i couldnt remember little things. I even read it before the exam. How frustrating! So i had to derive most of the equations from the beginning and totally wasted time. Again.. HOW FRUSTRATING!
Mummy was suppose to call to wake me up at 7.30am. (Afraid i might oversleep again huhu) But i woke up earlier and she finally called around 7.38pm and was surprised that i just got out of the shower. She did text me twice sayang "BANGUN BANGUN BANGUN! EXAM! EXAM! EXAM!" ... word per word exactly! Hahaha.
Finally got my references from Syred. Gona get them before town i guess. Then watch 'Pirate of the Carribean'. I have the eye patch from umie's birthday last year... im actually thinking of using it.... hmm.... we'll see... hehehe.
Im done with revising for tonight. Thought i might end today with a blog post. Why? I really dont know. haha.
Im still disappointed about my last paper. I kind of lost hope for a bit, then i slapped myself hard to remind me that i have 2 more papers and i need work extra EXTRA hard for them *sigh* I miss the days back in STPRI and MD. I had more hope and belief in myself back then.
How can this not lead to great outcomes? *sigh*
This lovely mess was the result of me and peman's study session the night before the exam in the library. Ermm.. there were more behind the camera.. huhu.
After the paper, i had to go out and release the tension. Hey, that's a good enough reason! =P The babies and I went to watch 'Zodiac' and 'Magicians'. I personally think that Zodiac was a really good movie, though almost 3 hours. I couldnt take my eyes away from the screen. Jake Gyllenhaal, Robert Downey Jr and Mark Ruffalo <333>
Yesterday i watched 'Finding Neverland'.. borrowed the dvd from Nisa. I never got to watch the whole movie, til yesterday. OMG... I cried banar2 ni wah. Having my period didnt exactly help. Hormones! Hahaha. That reminds me, i havent watched 'A Walk to Remember' for quite a while now. I used to watch that so many times, and cried most of the time i watched it. Pathetic much? Haha!
Anyhoo.. i probably should get some sleep now. Gota wake up early to go to the library and do intense revision =D Good night world. I shall see you tomorrow!
Ohh.. Papah told me some exciting news today. But we're torn between whether or not he should go. It is a great opportunity. But for a family man, it really is a long time. Im pretty excited about it though! Hee!
THAT WAS THE CRAPPIEST PAPER IN THE HISTORY OF SOLID MECHANICS!!!
I was confident that this was gona be the easiest of all module this semester, and that this will really help with lifting up my average. Then i opened the question paper.. and wanted to cry!!! It was NOTHING like past exams.... AT ALL!! When the head invigilator said "Time's up" ... you can see everyone's horrible reaction. I think everyone's at the point of suicidal! (Yes, i can be very exagerrating!) Hahahaha.
Im gona stuff my face with whatever food i can find right now.
Before the exam, Apeq said to us "100%!!!"... then when it finished he kept on saying "Mati. Mati. Matiiiii" hahahhaa. The dude next to me gave up the moment he read thru the questions. He went out the first hour.
This is just for future reference on how me and the boyfy used to talk. Okay... for our own amusement ONLY... his attempt to de-stress me while i was in the library earlier cramming my head. We dont really talk like this.... astah.. banar.. hahha
Hakeem: Im bored. *bla bla bla* ... what you doing dawg? Santy: Dont b trippin. ((lambat reply text)) I din' realize ur sms dawg. I b revising for the sheeeet tomorrow. Word dawg word! Hakeem: Haha... that's just dope man.. dont be spitting dem words in the streets dawg.. word up! when u be back 2 ur hood dawg? Santy: Patience dawg... Patience. I b finishing when i finish dawg. No fo' sho. ((I couldnt come up with anything which meant 'im not sure')) Hahaha. Im lost for words. D streets aint giving me any.
I know i'll be laughing my ass out when i read this again! Hahaha. I had to contain myself in the library. Imagine me smiling to my phone, everyone probably thought the exams got to me already! before it even started... hahahaha.
Okay.. okay.. back to studying til the wee hours. I actually dont mind =P
So i lied. I didnt go back to bed. I couldnt. Forced myself, then my sisters were online. Hehe. I'd like to think that my body had enough sleep, but my mind tells differently. My head's still spinning. But with that.. i still managed to clean my room, did laundry and did the dishes. Crazy. I've never been up this early. I can sense a long longgg day today.
So i lied. I didnt go back to bed. I couldnt. Forced myself, then my sisters were online. Hehe. I'd like to think that my body had enough sleep, but my mind tells differently. My head's still spinning. But with that.. i still managed to clean my room, did laundry and did the dishes. Crazy. I've never been up this early. I can sense a long longgg day today.
Sick and sleeping. That was my pm on messenger. And yes, that was what i did right after sending Umie. SLEPT. I just couldnt bring myself around and about. Told Chubbs that i'll be sleeping for a while around 7ish last night and will be waking up a little later to revise. Yeah, that didnt happen. Ni i just woke up .. and had my "dinner". Haha.
I had the weirdest dream. But i cant seem to remember. Gah! Dang it. Okay, my head's spinning. Say hello to bed =D
I was told yesterday that Papah secretly bought a huge cake for all Puja's mothers and another for Babu in conjunction of tomorrow's Mothers' day. It has probably been a while since we actually celebrated this most meaningful occasion. Zara said there were a lot of tears. I expected it, with how much this day meant for us and with what we are reminded on this day.
Its midnight in Brunei. So..
HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY MUMMY!I know you read my blog ;P I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SOO MUCH! You have done the most uncountable and humble things for me, i couldnt ask for more. Thank you for everything meh. Cant wait to see you in July.
..and HAPPY MOTHERS' TO BABU AND ALL MY AUNTS!! as well as all the mothers in the world =)
Mothers' day have traditionally been the day we celebrate Babu's birthday, since we dont really know her actual birthdate. *sigh* I miss home.
Speaking of which, Umie is about to leave for Brunei in half an hour. She left Cardiff at 9.45am. We stayed over at her place til we sent her off at the station; helped her pack, got stuffed with the HUGE pizzas, hung out. Umie's neighbour, Dex, knocked on her window at around 4isham.. the hung out with us in her room. He was nice =) He gave Nisa the idea on how to torture the slug on Umie's porch. Okay, that wasnt exactly nice. But he really is. Haha =P
Im listening to LP's new album "Minutes to Midnight". Yes i downloaded =X (Please dont kill me) I dont know, its okay i guess. But i still havent felt the whole "wow" factor and im already on the sixth track. Chester looked like Bono in their new video. I dont know if that's good or not. I like Bono. Dont get me wrong.
Im sick. The whole headache and flu. The lack of sleep last night didnt really help. But it didnt matter. I got some good sleep after that. Im gona make myself some IndoMee which i havent eaten since last December, pretty proud of myself =) Not huge on eating it anyways.
Alright, i should feed my tummy. Talk soon <3
Ohh, yesterday marked the day of my final lecture of my degree. How exciting. Now, 3 papers. Then graduation, here i come. Amin! Siah already has he grad robe and such, we got excited to the thought of wearing that already. Hee!
I've just been going through everything in my head what i've been through this whole term. It made me realize that to still be standing on my own two feet, i am stronger than i thought i was. This term had its usual rollercoaster ride, but there were serious lows that i'm still dealing with.
To be away from home and blood, it sure makes it harder. Some said that this eye twitching i've been having lately is partly caused by how emotionally stressed i am. Frankly speaking, i have been emotionally confused. I know that i am weak and emotionally unstable, but i tell myself to be strong .. that i cant afford to be weak right now, especially since finals is just around the corner. And because i tell myself this, i havent actually have the time to mourn properly. Time hasnt exactly allowed me to mourn/grieve anyways. What with projects and exams in the way. I guess its better this way. Because mentally, i feel defeated at signs of weaknesses. And when i feel defeated, i am hopeless.
"Twitching of the eyelids will usually stop on its own in a short time and will improve with rest or reduced stress."
Heh! I suppose they're right. I HAVE been lacking proper sleep/rest and been under a lot of stress this whole term. Oh well, only for another month or so. Then i've the rest of my summer to cure it =D
Okay, back to revising. I actually miss going to lectures. I've the most free time this semester. Its nice, but its making me more of a bum.
I've a sorethroat, and that's never good during exam period. But i always get it during revision period anyways. Im not surprised really.
Gosh. My left eye has been twitching for the past week. On and off. I googled it (Yes mie, i GOOGLEd hehe) .. then it said that im just probably tired, lack of sleep bla bla. True i suppose. When i told them babies.. Nisa said "Bohhhh" (Which i knew that it meant bad luck if it was the left eye) ERK! Umie said that "something" probably went in my body. again ERK!! But fayeee said "That means money's coming in!" ... I refuse to believe Nisa n Umie after that! HAHA!
The weekend in Manchester was surely fun. Being around family, spoilt with love and FOOD! hahaha. Thank you Aunty Nong!! =) Was filled with games, Nandos, Blackpool, arcades, pictures, cold weather, FOOD... didnt do any shopping though, how odd was that? =P I'll probably go back there after exams, before i go to Hull to visit Hakeem. Cant wait! (Pictures are up on multiply btw.)
Oh wow. Graduation is just around the corner. InsyAllah. Amin! Just this afternoon, i was texting with my dad and he said "Your degree is just 2 months away". That scared me for a while. That's one way to look at it i suppose. But the thought of finishing my degree actually worries me at times. I like to think that im still young, that im not ready for the working world, probably because when i do start.. that would probably already mean the rest of my life. (I've probably mentioned this somewhere in my posts before)
But on the other hand.. the thought of earning my own money and actually helping my parents with some stuffs actually excites me! Parents have done so much for their kids, that this will be the time to return the favour. I like that thought, though parents are humble beings who dont ask much but success and happiness for their kids. *sigh* I cant wait for them to come here. I cant wait to show them around.
Umie's going back this weekend, and Nisa the next. Im gona miss them. But we promised to hang out once we're all in Brunei. Right babes?!! <3
I got the food that mummy sent thru Aunty Nong. Now i have 3 packets of IndoMee, 2 packets of 3-in-1 Milo, and some other extra stuffs. Thanks meh! <3
Im gona go make a hot drink now. Cold weather today. I miss the sun already. Talk soon people. Mwah <3
Im in Salford, Manchester at the moment. Its a nice change.. to be around family instead. Eating too much for a day. hehe! =P
Came here last Saturday morning. Going back late tonight. Aunty Laila couldnt come down this weekend. *sniff* So it was Hadi, me, Aunty Nong and the kids. I didnt expect it to still be cold here. Lucky i brought along a hoodie.
Blackpool was crazy as well, the weather that is. Went there yesterday. It was fun, being kids for a day. Nyahaha. We got crazy for a bit, in the arcade... obsessed more like it. Wasted lotsa 10p's ... hahaha.
Gona go to Manchester city today. Hadi's still sleeping though. Huhu. Gona go mandi now. Just had a nice breakfast. Keke.
Sometimes i feel so full of life, it just spills out.
Hmm.. somehow my last two posts from multiply didnt turn up here. Shucks. I'll never understand this cross-posting thing =P
I woke up to my dad's text. He just came back from Riyadh for a meeting, i think. Work related anyways. When he was transitting in Dubai, he said he was looking through SLR cameras and that he was thinking of buying one. Then tadi pagi he texted that he already bought it!!! ngusnofgkmglg! I want! He knew i wanted one since forever (ok.. since i came back for summer last year =P)... that's why he's bragging about it to me now =P They're trying it out as I speak.
Then my mom said she'll get me one if i get 1st class.. hahaha! Yup, they're pretty good at motivating us alright =P
Spidey today! Everyone's pretty excited about it. I just hope it looks as great as the trailer! Probably watching it later this afternoon with the babies. Then we have the sisters gathering. Sembahyang jemaah hajat for the exams. And dinner at my place.
Man.. i gota pack early. Have to catch the 530am train tomorrow. Weeee! Meeting them Poojas! =D
